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For a long time, I’ve been the only one foreign girl in the office… the alien… And I quickly had to learn the unbearable truth: I will have to live for the rest of my life with this stupid accent of mine… Okay, I can live with the fact of speaking with a different accent… but what about my moods?

Being “the different one” is something “I made a choice to be” when I decided to leave my country… and to tell you the truth…going back to those days, I guess I was feeling like the odd one out down there as well… So what is the problem with me?

Why do I feel that my life sucks while everyone else’s is so established and stable? Some people even tried to make me think that I am going through the change…
Me? Really? Come on!

Why does my mood change from one hour to another… why do I take things so much to heart?
Sometimes I feel over-sensitive and blue… and some other times I cannot stop my euphoria, so you’ll find me singing out loud ( at-the-top-of-my-voice ) in the car or going out running every single night of the week… What is happening to me? Forget about it, I have not reached the “change” yet!

Wherever I am - up in the skies or down in the doldrums’ – it is not great to be so intense… Other people don’t take things too much to heart and get better (really better) through all of the funny situations that I struggle with.

What about my career? Some of my colleagues at work take their jobs so seriously… I just can’t see work as THAT devoted place of illumination and pride… well, that’s affecting me now! Why am I so different?

And finally…What about love? I am so happy to have this beautiful marriage and see that we still have fun together…feeling free and enjoying each other…but is this it? Forever? I mean, honestly? Really? Yes, maybe I am experiencing the change…

Why do I have the feeling that I am the only one who is over thinking all this stuff… or am I?



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ORwC7gNyUaY